Nanny

My family has called my grandmother Nanny for as long as I have been alive. In fact almost anyone who knows her calls her Nanny. I don't know if you know what her name means to me, but it means prayer warrior and godly advice giver. It means lover of lost souls, care giver to anyone in need, friend who never looks down on you, and the one person who can see past your sins and poor choices in order to give you a pearl of wisdom that will help you realize how much God loves you. I hold her in the highest of regard and have the utmost respect for her Christian values and God fearing lifestyle.
Recently the evil effects of on set dementia and Alzheimer's disease have begun to rob her of her ability to remember and process information. I have seen her go from a confident woman of prayer to a frail, confused shadow of her former self. It's a situation that is causing immense heart break for my family. My father, who is an old grizzly bear, has been reduced to tears on several occasions. To see the pain in my aunts eyes and to see them, and my father, realize that their mother is slowly fading away has been excruciating for me. I have had moments of doubt and fear. But as sure as I sit here today, I know that God is in control of this situation. He has Nanny in His hands and all this is going to work out for His glory!
It's hard... So hard in fact that I have been crying and wondering how I will get by. It's times like this that I remember Nanny's favorite scripture: Daniel 10:12, Then he said, “Don’t be afraid, Daniel. Since the first day you began to pray for understanding and to humble yourself before your God, your request has been heard in heaven. I have come in answer to your prayer."
When I read that I remember that He is answering my prayer. I remember that Nanny would want me to rely on God, just as she has for so many years. I remember that no matter how hard it gets He has heard my cries and answered my prayers!!! The day is coming when she won't remember who I am. I know on this day that He will be with me and will hold me and my family in His arms.
I love you Nanny and I know that your presence at your current home is blessing to all those around you. I know that your children, grandchildren and great grandchildren coming to see you and pray for you have shown the love of our Savior to all those around you. God is in control and He will speak to the hearts of all those who come in contact with you. I love you Nanny.